I Ain’t All That Depressed, Folks


Melancholia I, Albrecht Dürer

A few of my friends read my post about losing my cat Wednesday and my depression and got worried about me. But —

As it turns out, I’m hardly depressed at all. I believe I may have a slight case of dysthymia (very low-grade depression, self-diagnosed), but that’s all. What I needed above all was some peace and quiet — a good dose of solitude. I’m very introverted, and I was getting way too much input under admittedly trying circumstances.

Rather paradoxically since I’ve moved and am living alone I’m being much more social. I have friendly neighbors, and I like to sit outside my apartment and talk to them. Add that extra people input to days of busy-ness searching for my cat, acclimating to my new environment and way of life, etc., etc., and it all added up to a major case of emotional, sensory, and people overload. I’ve increased my alone time considerably, and the overload has mostly vanished along with the very short term depression. I still feel unhappy at times, but that’s about it. A lot of the time I feel great.

In other words it seems not to be a case of depression. It was a bad case of what’s known as unhappiness. That’s all. I apologize to all those who were worried about me because I used the D-word (depression).

So — dysthymia, probably … depression, no.

And, yes, if you’re wondering, I’ve talked to my therapist about my possible dysthymia. We agreed that I may have a case of it and that it’s nothing to worry about.

Love. —Rachel


3 thoughts on “I Ain’t All That Depressed, Folks

  1. *Kyle* says:

    There is so much to be said for loving some alone time. I can get input overload myself. I sort things out best within myself with a little alone time- it may be a touch depression- or it may be just me needing a refuel- or me needing t o be with my own thoughts- and I feel ya! People will call me and say “let go do this”. I am never allowed to reply- “no, I am sorting, working, etc, through x” because then you get all this “Oh no don’t be depressed and inside blah blah blah”. So I just lie and say I have other plans. I understand how you felt 100%. I enjoy my own company. HUG HUG SUGAR!

  2. Cassie says:

    I sometime get a bit miffed that being sad is equated as being depressed. Sad things happen in life and sadness is the normal human emotional response. Anyway, I am sorry about your loss.

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